This week, from the moment since I arrived, was one of the most difficult for me. Despite being happy and glad for being here, the feeling that life also continues to exist back home sometimes is scary.
As typical Latino, I come from a big family and, what I suprisingly got to realize here, is that we are extremely closed and attached to each other.
Back home I have a niece and a nephew that are the apple to my eyes, and the idea that I’m not there to see them growing sometimes might haunt me a bit, together with the “fear” that they will not recognize me when I come back.
Of course these feelings and thoughts come and go, but I would be lying if I said that EVS is all about making friends and learning things. It is also about getting to know yourself, your limits and your fears.
For the first time I was away from home, for the first time I was separated from people with whom I lived my entire life and I cannot stop thinking how much this has impacted my experience.
I became more independent and I became stronger, just for the fact that I learned how to embrace feelings that I used to reject easily – as my family always defined me as a very cold person, until I moved here and started being so lovely to them :)).
After a few days, this down moment was gone, and I’m glad that I could count not only on my family’s support but also the support from the people that here work with me.
I couldn’t have been more cherished, and I’m very glad for that.